Gang of youngsters take to bliss!!

I felt the need to express my thoughts sooner on how the world is turning to or rather the younger generation.Everything is looking for something.What is that something that everyones looking for?Why is everyone struggling for that something which is so easily available?Why is nobody taking the advantage of it?Why isnt anyone taking it but looking for cheaper means?As i go through this journey of finding out what the youth really want?What are they really looking for?
It was Nityananda Trayodasi again :) and as i came on my vehicle i saw a group of youngsters.As we see youngsters together,the thoughts flashes back to our days when we used to so called enjoy with friends.A cup or coffee,or a visit to the theatre with friends.I only remembered this.How each one is searching for temporary happiness.But as i entered the temple,a few minutes later,the whole group of youngsters entered the temple.As they just entered the temple,their faces lit up!
I was amazed to see all of them,praying very fervently to Srila Prabhupada.All of them were deeply absorbed in praying to Srila Prabhupada.That time i realized,Srila Prabhupada wanted this.He dint want anyone to go for cheap stuff,but take the highest gift of Krishna Consciousness.He dint want anyone to rot in this material world but hanker for Krishna Prema.He dint want the youth to go to discos and other mundane stuff.He just gave an easy formula "CHANT HARE KRISHNA AND BE HAPPY" and everything will be alright.Is this so difficult to do?Srila Prabhupada turned Hippies to Happies.Is this task so difficult for Srila Prabhupada of turning the hearts of youngsters?I realized how true it is.This youngsters really inspired me.At times appearances can be deceptive,but i was wrong!!I concluded that these were the same youngsters who party and stuff,but they came to temple.Immediately,they paid obeisances to all the deities.When they went to the Lord Jagannath altar,they were amazed looking at him.Tell me who doesn't smile looking at Lord Jagannath's smile! Immediately all of them started chanting,each one closing their eyes and absorbed in the chanting.This is what Srila Prabhupada wanted.He wanted each one to chant the Holy Names of the Lord with humility and be happy always.
Now this made me think, if all the youth were like this.These youngsters got the bliss.They came to temple to taste the most blissful thing in the whole Universe.Is this what each youth is looking for?Why there is so much of depression and stress and why suicide levels are going high?Doesn't it remind how important Krishna Consciousness is.Is this what everyones looking for?They are after temporary happiness and afterwards are hurt and left depressed?I think its high time,each one of us took to this most blissful Krishna Consciouness.The highest and real happiness and the most blissful.It is the highest benefit ever a person can get.Even the demi-gods hanker for this.
I once remember a college girl who was so depressed and everything she did was upsetting.So she was thinking what life is this.Everything is so upsetting and so topsy turvy.She went to the temple,for the lecture and what she learnt was the symptoms of Kali Yuga!She heard the words "Manushya janam paya,Radha Krishna na bhajiya,janiya suniya bisha khainu--meaning O Lord Hari, I have spent my life uselessly. Having obtained a human birth and having not worshiped Rädhä and Krishna, I have knowingly drunk poison.She was amazed.After the lecture there was the most blissful kirtan.She had never heard about this nor seen something as amazing as this.She became a devotee the very next day.Today shes an amazing devotee,fully fledged in devotional service and preaching always with amazing book distribution always.So just by one entry into the temple,changed a depressed mind,imagine the world,and how necessary it is for each one to take up Krishna Consciousness?How we are searching for cheap stuff,and bogus Gurus,while this process is so sublime and so wonderful.
Everyone is just wanting this enthusiasm,this everything of Krishna Consciousness which will make them dive into an ocean of unlimited bliss.So taking the inspiration of the youngsters and i wish i could just pray to Srila Prabhupada like them and just pray that each one of us,take to Krishna Consciousness and be happy,blissfully chanting the Lords name.We will then realize,where has the depression and sadness gone?!!!!

A Drunkard Visits Radha Madana Mohana!

As i entered Sri Sri Radha Madana Mohana ji, the blissful Lordships were so attractive.They looked so amazing in their lemon yellow and green outfits.It was Nityananda Trayodasi and the whole temple was in a festive mood.Indeed it was a festival.As i sat down to chant my rounds,there entered a drunkard.He was on a high [:P] and he dint have consciousness of what he was doing.And i started looking at him,got distracted from my chanting,but it gave me an amazing realization.
So i started looking at him.And he first went near Srila Prabhupada and just folded his hands.Then he came close to the altar of Sri Sri Gaura Nitai.He saw the raised hands of Sri Sri Gaura Nitai and he immediately he raised His hands and smiled looking at Their Lordships.I wondered does he ever know whether it is Nityananda Trayodasi.What immense fortune he had that he came to the temple on this most auspicious day.I remembered the pastimes of Lord Nityananda when i saw the drunkard.The pastime where Lord Nityananda was drunken and intoxicated with Krishna Prema so much that he did not care for anything.He was in so much ecstacy.But this drunkard,was just on a high.He was just walking around the Lordships and looking at them with raised hands.
Just then a curious little boy came and started looking at the deity of Sri Sri Gaura Nitai and paid his obeisances.He is about 5 years old.Next while going to see Sri Sri Radha Madana Mohana he looked at the drunkard,gazing at him for a few seconds.Then he signaled to the drunkard and showed him how to pay obeisances.The drunkard just stared at the boy.The boy dint lose hope,he walked along with the drunkard and showed him again.I was amazed at the boys seriousness.He dint know he was a drunkard but still wanted to show him,how to pay obeisances.That is mercy the little boy was giving the drunkard.I immediately remembered the pastime of Jagai and Madhai and how Lord Nityananda showers mercy upon them.And later the drunkard paid obeisances and the boy is smiling.Immediately i realized how pleased Lord Nityananda must be!!
So i realized,how the drunkard got unlimited mercy of Lord Nityananda and also special mercy of paying dandavats. I read that by paying one obeisance to Lord Hari,it is equal to performing one Ashwamedha sacrifice. So the drunkard got all the mercy of everything and His face was beaming with a smile and His hands still raised high in the air.This just reminded me of the unlimited mercy of Lord Nityananda and also the drunken state of Lord Nityananda in Krishna Prema.That day i begged for special mercy to Lord Nityananda that the drunkard may be intoxicated in Krishna Prema always and always raise his hands high in the air,jumping and dancing and smiling for Lord Hari.
And also my chanting became even more very blissful thinking of Lord Nityananda's pastimes and how merciful and kind he is.Akrodha Paramananda Nityananda Raya.Nitai never gets angry and hes always smiling and blissful.I just guess thats why due to Nityananda's mercy the beggar also smiled looking at the smiling beautiful face of Lord Nityananda.Who can understand His Lila?!!!
I just pray unto the Lotus Feet of Lord Nityananda that through His causeless mercy,may he intoxicate all of us with Harinaam and make us blissful by His mercy.Hey Nitai everything is possible by You.Dont smile now Nitai,i can see it,but so foolish i am not able to understand Your Lila!!

Nityananda Rama ki Jaya!
Radha Madan Mohana ji ki Jaya!
Smiling Lila ki Jaya!
Nitai Gaura Premanande!!

A Game of Cricket with Realizations :)

Ahem!I begin again with another one!Hmm its been very long since i went to our terrace of our flats.Probably months ago,during the last rain to get drenched[:D] with my friends.So today is Ekadasi and i couldn't chant my rounds so well so i decided "Why not the terrace?"!And so with full enthusiasm i went to the terrace and started my Japa walk[:)] and from the terrace there was a beautiful view of the Hanuman ji Mandir.The temple dint open as yet.But something else attracted me.Two little boys playing cricket!They were playing in the temple compound itself.It gave me a very wonderful realization.The batsmen was pretty strong and the bowler was trying all his means to make him out.But how hard he tried he couldn't out the batsmen.So the batsmen was so strong,just like how a pure devotee of Krishna is strongly dependant on Krishna.The bowler was Maya[:P] and he was attacking each time,in different angles and he was trying his best to move the attention of the batsmen and make him out.But how hard he tried,he just could not.He dint even have a bat and it was just a log of wood.But his enthusiasm and determination was amazing.So it made me realize,how can we become a pure devotee?By chanting the 16 rounds of Hare Krishna Maha Mantra and following the regulative principles and also the instructions of Guru Maharaj.And by constantly and nicely following these instructions and surrendering to Krishna we win.So similar was the case with the batsmen.Whatever he did,he was fixed and focussed.But the bowler was trying every single moment to make him out,but he could not.Finally the batsmen ended with Victory.Gave me the intense feeling of joy,"Where there is Krishna,there is Victory" and yes as we surrender to Krishna,he showers all His mercy on us.Thats how Krishna is,he is just asking us to surrender.So i realized,Oh we have to get fixed like the batsmen.I took this on the positive aspect and even though Maya always attacks us,we should just depend on Krishna.And my chanting became ever blissful and the thought of not chanting well just went away and the chanting was amazing and ever blissful :) And i could chant many many rounds.Thanks to Hanuman ji and the boys for this realization.
Then the temple opened.The pujari opened the temple,but the worship was just a formality.Srila Prabhupada many times also stressed on deity worship and how our moods should be while worshiping the deity,in the mood of a servant,or a Das.The pujari opened the temple,lit an incense and just went away.He started counting the money he received."WHERE IS THE LOVE FOR THE DEITY'' He lit an incense and started doing some cleaning with some old cloth lying on the floor.They say Cleanliness is next to Godliness.Krishna should be given the best paraphernalia.But Hanuman ji is quite happy on the pujari's service[am just guessing] and this standing on the terrace,just made me realize how important our mood should be while serving the deity and in which mood we should chant and how importantly trinad api sunicena is necessary for us to chant the Holy Names of the Lord and without it how impossible it is for us to chant.How to offer respect to the deity and by offering our respects in the mood of a servant.How Srila Prabhupada predicted the world would be and how he asked each one of us to purify ourselves by chanting the Holy Name of the Lord and later worshiping the deity in the mood of the servant.I just pray to Srila Prabhupada and all the other Acaryas that i chant the Holy Names in the mood of humility and also serve my deity in awe and reverence.
Hanuman ji ki Jaya!
Japa walk realization ki Jaya!
Srila Prabhupada ki Jaya!
Gaura Premanande Hari Hari Bol!

Another dream :)

It is one of the rarest dreams again and a dream to be cherished for a lifetime.Well this morning my friend was describing about HH.Radhanath Swami Maharaj and his disciples and how grateful they were and how devoted they were to their Guru Maharaj.How they served him with love and awe always!So keeping all this in mind i read the Caitanya Bhagavata, the devotee who very very mercifully gave as he always does :) and hence i slept and then the dream comes as i sleep :)
It was a great day in Orissa,bright and sunny, and i have no idea how i landed from Secunderabad to Orissa :) and yes it must be the Lords mercy.As Srila Prabhupada says life is just like a long dream and these dreams when we sleep,we imagine flying,being with someone etc.Well am not taking anyone on an imagination tour!! Well yes it was a wonderful day in Jagannath Puri Dham.I and my friend were there.There were a few other people too.It was a wonderful place given to stay.As usual i began to stroll leaving my friend behind who decided to sleep.Krsna's mercy :D and then i was walking through the lanes of Jagannath Puri totally mesmerized by the tranquility of the atmosphere.Then i came to a wonderful lane,where houses looked really ancient and they were so beautiful.It reminded me of our house in Srirangam :) Then as i walked past the streets alone and then there was some discussion around and i realized that there were Iskcon devotees around and i thought what mercy!!As i moved further i realized the preacher was none other than HH.Radhanath Swami Maharaj. I was so thrilled and i always longed to see him.His purity attracted everyone and made the stone hearted people cry!He always preached the best and sang wonderfully.Maharaj saw me and he gave a huge smile and it captured in my heart and invited me in.I was wearing a blue salwar :P Then Maharaj immediately concluded the lecture and called me.I went and paid obeisances and sat beside him,just a few feet away from him.He asked me how are you and how is your sadhana and other things and i replied back with great enthusiasm :)
As i sat beside him i felt his purity,the force which can inundate everyone with the love of God,the purity due to his association with Srila Prabhupada one of the greatest Acaryas.There was a divine spark in his face.He started telling me about the pastime of how Lord Krsna loved the cows.Each moment seemed so wonderful to me.Every second was exciting.I never spoke a word about Varnasrama and Maharaj started describing something really wonderful.He said a sentence''Very soon the whole world will be flooded with Harinaama and Pure Love of God'' and he said we need all devotees to make it come true.I looked around.It was a beautiful house.Everything seemed similar like i knew the house for years :) There was a mataji who was Maharaj's disciple and she gave me many services which i did with full enthusiasm.It was 5 in the evening and i was wondering to visit the other places too.Maharaj then got up.When he did the mat was filled with the dust of his Lotus Feet which was golden in color.Wow it looked like someone has powdered gold.He then went inside.Then Maharaj returned and asked mataji for a glass of water.Mataji asked me to get some water and took use of the opportunity.I immediately and carefully filled a huge glass of water and handed it over to Maharaj which he took carefully and humbly replied thank you.I dint know what to say but just smiled and bowed!
It was getting a bit late.Then there was a prabhuji who had come there. He looked like the prabhuji whom i saw in Namashraya farm [;)] Then mataji asked me to wipe the floor.As i looked around there was so much of dust of the Lotus Feet of Maharaj.I immediately took a piece of paper and carefully collected the dust and smeared some over my head so that i can get some Prema Bhakti.Then after doing so i still dint want to wipe the floor.Mataji reminded me that Maharaj would come back for kirtana and lecture so i immediately took a cloth and started wiping the floor with a bit of sadness.Then Maharaj came and reminded me of the Gundica temple cleaning :) and how cleaning the place of worship is cleaning our hearts!Then arrived a few disciples of Maharaj and there was a beautiful lecture on how the Lotus Feet of the Lord is :) It was so blissful.Maharaj just touched the hearts of everyone.As i looked on the opposite side of the road,i realized and saw a temple of 2 Govardhan Silas.One was black and he looked very very pretty.I realized i forgot to get my camera and was upset over it.I was upset and i wanted to take a picture of Maharaj so close.Then after the lecture many disciples left and there were only 2 others remaining.I was tempted to ask Maharaj how long he would stay here and i really did[real guts :D]Maharaj beamed with a huge smile and he replied that he would be here for about 5 more days and i was overjoyed. And i was even more happy because i could bring the camera and take pictures :) and i still looked at Giriraja and he was so adorable :) I asked permission from Maharaj whether i could leave and took his blessings and he smiled again.He asked me ''DO YOU WANT GIRIRAJA?'',the black Giriraja? and i was so surprised.I dint know what to say.I couldn't believe my eyes and he said he would give it to me when i come tomorrow with a camera :) and asked me to go back to the ashrama soon and then devotees shouted Haribol!!What fortune they said! Yes i was really very fortunate and it was the most fortunate dream.
Then i hear a voice,get up Preethi,its late,go to the temple for your classes.I realized hey i wasn't in Orissa :D but yes it was one of the most treasured dream of getting Giriraja by HH.Radhanath Maharaj's hands.[wow :)] and i just wish it happens.When i got up i was just filled with so much of happiness which i cant express and immediately i start to smile and remember Giriraja and can just say ''GOVARDANO ME DISATAM ABHISTAM'' which means May that Govardhana fulfill Your desire :) and yes i just pray that he fulfills it. :)

Jagannath Puri Dham ki Jaya!
Giriraj Maharaj ki Jaya!
HH.Radhanath Swami Maharaj ki Jaya!
Transcendental dreaming ki Jaya :D
Nitai Gaura Premanande....Hari Hari Bol!!!!

Fickle mind!!

Sri Sri Gaura Nitai ki Jaya!

A poem about a fickle minded person and how he can attain perfection of life!!!!

O fickle mind,just see the beautiful Lotus Feet of Gaura Nitai,
For thet are the most merciful incarnation ever!!

O Fickle mind,just see the Lotus Feet of Gaura Nitai!
These Lotus Feet are sweeter than the sweetest honey!

O fickle mind,just look at the Lotus shaped eyes!
These capture even millions and millions of Cupids!

O Fickle mind,just call the name of Gaura Nitai once,
And you will be automatically delivered from this material world!

O Fickle mind just chant the name of Gaura Nitai,
Krishna Prema will automatically follow You!

O Fickle mind just think of Gaura Nitai,
All Your problems will come to an end!

O Fickle mind,just meditate on Gaura Nitai,
You will achieve Sri Radha Krishna in Vrindan Dham!

O Fickle mind,please chant the glories of Sri Gaura Nitai,
You will attain perfection of Life!!
What else do you need???


Nitai and Gauranga are pleased with even little menial service done to them,
Please take the benefit today and be delivered from repeated cycle birth and death!!

Gauranga bolite habe pulaka Sarira

Lord Gauranga,you fell into ecstacy while uttering the name of Krishna!You laughed,you cried,You rolled on the ground.O Lord,i am so stone hearted when will that day come when my body will shiver and hair will stand on its end by uttering the name of Gauranga?

Submitting this menial offering at the Lotus Feet of Sri Sri Gaura Nitai!!

A blissful visit to a Dham with a realization :)

Here are a few excerpts from my diary which i wrote on my way to Vrindavan Dham :)

November 4th 2007 :

Today am on the way to Sri Vrindavan Dham,due to the causeless mercy of Smt.Radharani.On the way there were lush green fields,it looked like a beautiful scenery.Farmers were very happily working on the farm.They led a very simple life.The cows,the paddy fields was their life to them.I wondered how beautiful nature is.Krishna has created so many beautiful things,the soft green grass,the paddy fields of lush green color and other crops,the beautiful mother cow,the bull who works so hard whole day but is still contended.The fruit bearing trees,the colorful butterflies,the bumble bees flocking which reminded me of Smt.Radharani.The cool refreshing water,where the little boys played and splashed water over each other.How wonderful nature is.I really wondered why i ran behind mundane material stuff.The women who cooked and brought food for their husbands in the afternoon and the little girls who played simple games :) and the trees which gives so much shade,the crops which give us our food and the beautiful wild flowers which blossomed,the small houses made of simple basic material where people lived simple lives and were so contended.Isn't all this so enchanting and how peaceful and serene the atmosphere is and how beautiful everything is?When was the last time you visited a village?


Now a contradiction to this.Imagine the life of the city,the hellish condition where we keep suffering every single day.The pollution,the people who keep reminding us of global warming and we hardly pay any heed to it yeah!The motor vehicles,everything is fast,yeah we need a fast life so go back to hell fast!!Its true!No love for each other,no care or concern for humans nor animals,constantly we hear on the news about murders and wars and other stuff happening every single day.Is this called decline of God Consciousness?Yes it is!Fast foods,food prepared in the modes of ignorance which increase anger.The idiot box,the mundane music!They call it rock but end up in shocks.Everyones just searching for temporary happiness and just going on performing sins,millions of them for their own mundane sense gratification.THe killing of MOTHER COW which is such an abominable act,the mother who gives us milk everything and we in turn kill her.What a hellish life to live.Think of it guys.



Now we are back again to the very peaceful atmosphere where a temple of Their Lordships are installed.Farms are present and everything is done for the satisfaction of the Supreme Lord.The flowers grown are strung in beautiful garlands for the Lords to be happy.The fruits are offered to the Lord.The grains are used to make preparations and offer it to him.Mother Cow is worshiped and given protection[Srila Prabhupada says if this is done half of the problems in the world will be solved] and she in turn showers her special mercy.Imagine working in the fields doing everything for the pleasure of the Lord.A blissful atmosphere where constant Harinaam[chanting of the Holy Names] is taking place.Imagine that peaceful and serene atmosphere where everything is done for Krishna,with love and care and offer our complete lives in his service.Who wouldn't want to live in such a peaceful atmosphere where everything is in the mode of goodness :)
Srila Prabhupada always mentioned that the city life is just a hellish life and we shouldn't live in the cities except for the sake of preaching.This atmosphere or the atmosphere of Varnasrama is what Srila Prabhupada's mission was and has been left to each one of us to fulfill,and which my dear most Guru Maharaj is striving to establish.In such an atmosphere,Krishna Consciousness is just so easy,full of goodness and be very happy with cows,fields,everything for the pleasure of the Supreme Lord.
This area of Varnasrama Dharma requires loads of hard work and support and if it is done,the dream accomplished will be to have Vrndavan Dham in every village.Come everyone lets join hands together joining this mission,living happily and make the dream of my Guru Maharaj ''MAKE VRNDAVAN VILLAGES' come true pleasing Guru Maharaj,Srila Prabhupada and Gopala :)

HH.BHAKTI RAGHAVA SWAMI MAHARAJ KI JAYA!!!!
''MAKE VRNDAVAN VILLAGES'' PROJECT KI JAYA!!!!!

Vrindavan Dham!

Sri Vrindavan Dham ki Jaya!
Jaya Sri Radhe Shyama!

Firstly it is the causeless mercy of Smt.Radharani for giving me entry into her Dham.I never expected that i would Sri Vrindavan Dham,the plans i made was so confusing at first but due to the causeless mercy of Smt.Radharani everything went on very very well and so much of causeless mercy was showered upon this most fallen soul.
I firstly also thank my God sisters for inviting me to come with them when my trip was so confusing.We left for Sri Vrindavan Dham,we all got into the train and it was so wonderful being with devotees and kept discussing Gaura Lila.Gaura Lila is so wonderful and Lord Gaurahari is so merciful.We were discussing various pastimes.Enjoyed a lot on the train.The next morning a few devotees got down at Mathura and we proceeded to Delhi as we had to go to Jaipur.We went to Sri Sri Radha Parthasarathy temple at Delhi,a wonderful and a very huge temple.I was just amazed the way the temple was maintained.On the walls of the temple were the pastimes of Lord Gaurahari,and i couldn't stop staring at them,especially the pastime when Gaurahari falls into ecstacy when he sees Lord Jagannath.We were at the temple for a long time and the deities were very beautiful.We had a wonderful time there.Then we proceeded to the station where we had to leave for Jaipur.It was an overnight journey and the morning we reached Jaipur and we first went to Sri Sri Radha Govinda Mandir which was the deity brought from Vrindavan Dham for Mangal aarti.It was so wonderful and there were thousands of devotees early morning.They all were so devoted.Its sad that we all don t go for Mangal Aarti but at the Radha Govinda temple there are thousands of devotees each morning,eagerly waiting for the darshan of their dear most Lordships.It was an amazing sight to see.We had the darshan of HH.Rompada Swami Maharaj.Immediately we left after Mangal Aarti for Sri Sri Radha Damodar temple.There were so many devotees there also.We sang the Damodar Ashtakam there.Radha Damodar sported yellow garments and they looked so beautiful.Immediately we left for a temple of Lord Shiva where we had to perfrom abhishekam of Lord Shiva.We prayed for Lord Shiva's mercy as he is the greatest Vaishnava.Then we left for Sri Radha Vinodarilal temple.The deities were small but they looked just beautiful.Vinodarilal ji looked like Sri Radha Raman ji in Vrindavan.Then we left for Sri Sri Radha Gopinath temple.We were there for darshan aarti.It was so wonderful.Radha Gopinath is always merciful and looked so sweet.Later after darshan,we left for the Birla Mandir,Sri Lakshmi Narayan temple.The deities were huge and they looked really beautiful.Then we had prasadam in a temple.Later we saw many temples around Jaipur.We went to the temple where there was Ganga water coming out of a Cows mouth.It was wonderful.On top was the temple where Baladeva Vibhushana wrote commentary looking at the beautiful face of Govinda.Then we went to many more temples.We went to the temple which rich Zamindars had built.Then in the evening we went to the Jaipur Palace which is just behind Sri Sri Radha Govind temple.The palace was very wonderful and it had beautiful paintings of Sri Sri Radha Govinda ji.Then we left for Mathura by bus and reached Mathura late night and reached Vrindavan Dham at 12 in the night.
First paid our obeisances to Sri Vrindavan Dham.The entry of Vrindavan Dham itslef was so exciting.It had so much of spiritual bliss and it made everybody smile.We waited for a room and finally got one and slept for a few hours.Immediately got ready and went for Darshan Aarti.I entered Sri Sri Krishna Balaram Mandir after a whole year.I was just too excited about the temple.Immediately went to Srila Prabhupada's Samadhi and paid my obeisances.Without Srila Prabhupada's mercy all the people all over the world would have not known the glories of Sri Vrindavan Dham and i wouldnt have visited the Dham too.Then immediately ran to see the Lordships Sri Sri Gaura Nitai,Sri Sri Krishna Balaram and Sri Sri Radha Shyamasundar.They wore a wonderful dress and they looked just amazing.Immediately took darshan and sat down for Srimad Bhagavatam class.Listened to the class and it was just amazing.Finally went for prasadam.I asked whether i could serve prasadam and they readily agreed.Srila Prabhupada always used to say that serving prasadam to Vaishnavas was the best service ever.Prabhupada himself used to serve his disciples and always asked them to have more prasadam :) This serving of prasadam gave immense of happiness to me and i always did it whole heartedly.The whole day was at the temple,chanting and doing some small services.Days in Vrindavan passed by so quickly and was absorbed in everything and the mood of Vrajavasis should be brought to actually be in Vrindavan Dham.
The next day was Diwali or the festival of lights,the actual day when Damodar Lila took place.Everybody was so enthusiastic and the day went by...we went to temples like Radha Damodar,Radha Gopinath,Radha Govind,Sri Bankey Bihari ji and Sri Radha Raman and many other temples.They were so wonderful.Whole morning was spent visiting temples.It was so wonderful to see.Then went back to serve prasadam.Then in the evening there was wonderful kirtan by Aindra prabhu and it was just amazing and everyone offered lamps and we stayed upto 10 in the temple enjoying blissful Harinaam.
The next day was Go Puja,it was an important day for me especially when Guru Maharaj was working so hard to establish Varnasrama Dharma.After Srimad Bhagavatam class,Sri Sri Krishna Balaram were taken in a palanquin to the Goshala.There were many Sanyasis who spoke about how important is cow protection.I had to realize its importance more.Then we had a small Harinaam.I went and fed cows,and prayed to mother cow to help me serve her and help Guru Maharaj for establishing Varnasrama Dharma.It was a wonderful day and after that had a blissful time in the temple.And we had a big annakuta of Giriraja and the most ecstatic kirtan of Aindra prabhu where everyone just fell into ecstasy.And in the evenings we used to go to the temple and just sit before Sri Sri Krishna Balaram or just stare at Balarams rosy cheeks and how adorable he looked and i used to stare for hours together and he was so merciful and used to get a garland every single day and we used to be thrilled.
The next day was Govardhan parikrama a parikrama of 28 kilometers and only Smt.Radharani and Giriraj should give us blessings to complete this parikrama.We started at 6 in the morning at Radha kunda and went through Kusuma Sarovar,Manasa Ganga and the forests of Govardhan.Was wondering OH KRISHNA YOU LIFTED SUCH A HUGE HILL.And then we reached Radha Kunda at 12 in the afternoon and took a dip in Radha Kunda,where i saw a devotee falling into ecstasy...the first time in my whole life i saw this devotee.He was reciting the Radha Kunda Ashtakam.He was crying,his voice was chocked up,he couldn't sing at all.He was in the waters of Radha Kunda falling into ecstasy each time..he was crying and crying and oh Lord Hari i wondered i wanted to just stare and stare at him.I then paid him obeisances from a far off place.He was a very blessed and fortunate soul.Vaishnavas are so exalted that the dust of their Lotus Feet purifies the entire universe.Then we went to the Samadhi of Sripad Maharaj.Then we completed our parikrama and again paid dandavats and thanked the Lord for making us perform a parikrama of Giriraj.We returned to the temple,happy and was full of energy.In the evening there was a beautiful kirtan and we danced forgetting all the pain.Really the mercy of the Lord is so much.
The next day was a free day.We went to more temples like Nidhuvan,Nikunj and a few more temples.We went to Loi Bazaar to finish our shopping.I bought Gaura Nitai deities and they look so adorable and yeah Gopi dresses and chanting bags.tilak,and so much....devotees need so much of things too :) We then bought mukuts,lockets,jewelery,dresses and so much.We returned back tired and went to take prasadam.Again got an opportunity to serve devotees.Then back to the temple whole day and enjoyed blissful Harinaam till late night.Met senior devotees whom we meet only once a year.
The next day went to Nanda Gaon and Barsana.It was an ecstatic trip.Friends all came there.We went to Vrinda Kund,Caitanya Mahaprabhu's bhajan kutira,and so many places.In Barsana begged for the mercy of Smt.Radharani.Then returned back tired and happy.Whole day spent in the temple :)
The next day is the most important day,the disappearance day of Jagat Guru Srila Prabhupada,the savior who gave the whole world Krishna Consciousness.It was a wonderful day.Srila Prabhupada was brought and all his disciples and grand disciples gave so many offerings.Out of which a mataji spoke so emotionally that i began to cry and immediately the whole audience began to feel bad and many shed tears.I just want to beg her Lotus Feet and how grateful she was to Srila Prabhupada.Then there was the abhisheka ceremony of Srila Prabhupada.Everyone was so happily performing it and also we had a wonderful time and awesome kirtan.Then we all chanted many rounds.Finally we got wonderful prasadam.We were all very happy.The day was spent in Srila Prabhupada's Samadhi Mandir and i got flowers too :) and then we went to the museum where there was the best Harinaam by Aindra prabhu.There were kathas going on every single day and the whole atmosphere was so transcendental.Devotees from all over the world came to Sri Vrindavan Dham especially for this day for Srila Prabhupada and no one can ever thank him for the gift he has given us and millions of whom are getting benefited every single day.
It was the last day in Sri Vrindavan Dham.There was a Rath Yatra in Delhi,but i think it was Sri Radhe's causeless mercy and she allowed me to stay for the last day in Vrindavan Dham.It was a gloomy day because if Smt.Radharani allowed i could come even the next year.I was sad because i would be leaving Sri Vrindavan Dham.Whole day was in the temple.Dint move out of the temple because i cannot see their Lordships for a year again.And again i was sitting under the tree,when mataji asked me ''Could you come for service'' and i was like why not and again on the last day i got some wonderful service of serving.We were all happy.Met some devotees again.It was going to be 4 and i was waiting for the last darshan as we would be leaving in a few minutes and i was staring at Sri Sri Krishna Balaram for a long time.Then time came to leave.It was just an emotional hour.Few of us began to cry.Who would want to leave Sri Vrindavan Dham?The temples,the Lilas,the devotees and everything so wonderful.There is no fear in Vrindavan Dham.Paid our final obeisances to the Dham and begged that i could be called next year too.Hope Radharani is listening to this prayer of mine.
I just cannot forget and thank HG.Parama Karuna Devi Dasi mataji who gave me service every single day.Its her causless mercy.And the other devotees and my dear most god sisters who brought me to the Dham and also all the wonderful devotees.Gaura Nitai Das prabhu,and so many other devotees my heart felt thanks to everyone.It was the most blissful experience being in Sri Vrindavan Dham.It is the causeless and causeless mercy of Smt.Radharani and Shyamasundar.Krishna Balaram i miss them loads.Again back to routine life in this mundane city.Begging unto the Lotus Feet of all the Vaishnavas to bless me so that i can visit Sri Vrindavan Dham year after year.

Sri Vrindavan Dham ki Jaya!
Sri Radha Shyamasundar ki Jaya!
Srila Prabhupada ki Jaya!
All Glories to Vaishnavas!
Hari bol